Saturday, December 18, 2004


Completely uninspired lately. You see the LUC is Australian and she's finally decided when she's moving back. Yup, I've got another 10 months or so in this cold city. It's scaring the hell out of me but I'm trying to see it as an opportunity.

I don't believe in geographical cures, no matter where you go, there you are.* But a big change like moving to the other side of the world can be a fine starting point for other changes.

My plan is to re-define myself. Make my life and behavior align more closely with what I want. That's going to take some work and I'm not sure what the list of things I want is going to include. Gigging regularly will be on there. Completing the @#$@% original tunes I start will be on there.

I'm not sure I want to be in another band anytime soon. Songs are power and I want to be in charge of my own musical fate. I think I'm going to wait until I have a bunch of my own tunes complete before I go looking for others to play with. Sigh, I hate most singer/songwriters, but I guess that's my fate for the next little while. If anyone in Oz sees me going strum, strum, strum, warble, warble, warble just shoot me 'kay? Loud and passionate or not at all dammit.

Here's where keeping this blog anonymous is going to pay off. I haven't told anyone at work or in the band yet. Partly because I'm a coward, saying it out loud is too real. Partly because the actual timeline isn't firm yet, and partly because I'm afraid of what it'll do to the band. We teeter from boredom to joy almost weekly and I'd hate to have the others give up just cause I was leaving and told them at the wrong time. Anyway, let's keep this our little secret right?**

*Thank you to Buckaroo Banzai

**Yes I realize my steady readership is all of two. MJ: If I promise to write about my defining moments as a musician (a great idea BTW) will you keep this on the down low? Esther: What can I say? Now that you're a big star an' all I'm sure you've the resources to out me. Good thing you're going to be too busy basking the glow of your new celebrity. :)